So I will start off with an update from the new
eye specialist yesterday. He actually
gave me some hope! He said there are 5
treatment options, 3 of which they will not even try on me, 1 I have already
tried, and 1 more. The one more is a
surgery to remove the abnormal blood vessel.
This is the same surgery I had almost 7 years ago on my left eye. And it was NOT fun! He said there is 50% chance it could get
better and a 50% chance it could stay the same but not much chance of the
surgery making it worse. He said that he
could do the procedure or the doctor I was seeing before could. I am going to try with my old doctor because
of the relationship we already have. I
meet with him in 2 weeks and I hope he is comfortable enough to do the
surgery. I am not excited about surgery,
but very excited about the possibility of regaining some of my vision! Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers!
I struggle a lot with negative emotions and
negative thinking when it comes to myself.
I am a pretty positive person about everything else, but I just have a
hard time finding things about myself that I like. That is terrible. I found a “mantra” online yesterday. And while it does have a curse word, it was
very powerful to me! I am thinking about
retyping it out and making myself repeat it every day and hang it around my
house.
Part of this journey is going to
be learning to love myself no matter how heavy or skinny I am. Loving me does not mean I have to stay the
same, but there is more to me than my weight.
I really struggle in this area and it is something I know I will have to
work on for a long time and make a conscious effort to stop the negative
self-talk. I cannot see the physical
changes in my body and that is tough. I
feel it in my clothes and other people notice it about me, but I still feel
like I weigh 402 pounds. When you have a
lot to lose it takes losing a lot to see a difference and I am ready to look in
the mirror and see something different.
It will happen, but I want it NOW!!
Us humans and our instant gratification.
A friend of mine posted an article on Facebook this
morning. A new weight loss surgery: they take the mesh that they use to repair
hernias and sew a patch of it onto your tongue.
You are restricted to an 800 calorie a day diet that is broth,
applesauce, and liquids. Supposedly it
is painful to eat solid foods. After 1
month, they remove it! There are so many
issues I have with this. What is this
teaching people about a healthy lifestyle?
After the month is over, wouldn't you go back to old habits? If I have to reduce my calories, I would
rather eat real food than liquids!
Goodness gracious, all these “weight loss miracles” out there are
crazy!!!! Good old diet and exercise!
Something I can live with forever! Now I
am not putting anyone down that has tried other ways and been successful, but
it is not for me. Each person has to
make their own decision as to what works best for them!
Better go for now. Extreme Weight Loss is on tonight! YAY!!!
Keep Losing,
Kari
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