Ups and Downs

Well yesterday had its ups and downs.  On the up side, I lost 2 pounds at my weigh-in, making a total of 68.8 pounds GONE FOREVER!!!!  I was so happy that I lost while on vacation!!!!  On the down side, I got bad news at the eye specialist.  My eye is actually getting worse and the doctor is stumped.  He did have me go for a blood test to rule out a rare disease, so now waiting on those results.  And I had to have TWO needles.  It really wasn't as bad as I thought, but still no fun at all.

Today I bought myself a dress.  I NEVER wear dresses.  I hate how I look in them.  But we are going to a wedding this evening and I wanted to look nice.  Now we will see if I have the courage to actually wear it. 

After the rough news yesterday, I was not on my best behavior.  I stayed within my points, but ate things I knew I should not, like fried chicken fingers and Chinese food.  It really did not even taste that good.  I did not get in all my fruits, veggies, and dairy servings.  Then I went to bed feeling like crap and guilty.  I don’t know why I did it, except I was depressed and thought food would fix it.  DUH!!! Haven’t I learned by now that food does not fix my problems?  I am back on track 100% today.  Hubby and the boys went through Arby’s drive-through and I just waited until I got home and fixed myself something healthy! Each day is a new adventure on this journey.  I am learning each day that I have the power to make the right or wrong choice.  And with 179 more pounds to lose, I will be making both along the way.  Writing on this blog does help keep me accountable.  Some days I just want to quit, but I know the end result will be worth it!

Keep Losing,Kari