I have really been struggling the past year and a half. Not just with weight loss, but will a lot of emotional issues.
Honestly, I have fallen out of love with myself. Right now, I really don't even like myself. And I can't figure out how to get past it.
I know I'm upset and angry with myself for gaining some weight back, but I can't figure out how to forgive myself and move forward.
I eat crap even when I don't really want it. I'm filling those emotional holes with Little Debbie and Hostess.
I have a problem. More than just being overweight. I have an eating disorder of some kind.
I have decided to take a break from Weight Watchers and just take some time to work on my mind. I have to get the mental and emotional issues worked out before anything else can happen.
I am still going to eat better. I'm still exercising (one thing that always makes me feel better)
I am going to work on accepting myself and finding my worth.
I will be shifting this blog to this for awhile and sharing my thoughts and discoveries.
Honestly, I don't care if I lose one more pound ever at this point. What I want is to be healthy, happy, and to love myself. I want the focus to come off of the food and scale and onto what I need to be happy and successful (and then not feeling guilty for being happy)
Some of you will follow me and some of you will leave me. I love you all for your support.
Things will be changing for the better!
Sending happy and healthy wishes!
Keep Losing,
Kari
Sorry to hear of your struggles that you are going through. I think at some point in this journey most of us go through these emotions. Just be very careful that you don't throw away the success that you have had so far. It will creep up on you and then you are right back at your old starting point. I'm wishing you luck, giving you love and will pray that you come out of this "funk" refreshed and ready to start anew.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you are feeling this way, but please know you are not alone. So many people struggle with liking and then loving themselves where they are at. It's smart of you to know that losing weight isn't going to change that, but that you have to work on your mind/emotions.
ReplyDeleteI personally stayed at close to my highest weight for 2.5 years, dealing with depression, anxiety, loss, and hating myself. It takes time and sometimes you need help. It may not be right for you now, but keep therapy in the back of your mind. I found that talking to someone about my self-esteem and self worth really helped me change my thoughts.
Kari, I am right there with you! Just keep focused on the Lord and I know HE will turn this around.
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